Yesterday morning, a girl (I consider 25 years of age a girl) that I do not know, sent me a text message asking where she could pick up my son. I answered, knowing that at some point during the day, she would be retrieving my child from daycare and taking him home with her. Her home is a place that I've never been to. He has his own room in her home and I've never seen it and probably never will. Her home is a place where God is not honored, the Bible is not read, and it's values are not lived out. Her home is a place where, the work I do as a parent, is completely unwound and unraveled. Her home is a place where I am not respected and even defamated in a round-about way. Her home is a place where he lives with two adults that I do not know.
Yet, I let him go. I have to.
I have to and I have to process the emotions that naturally come from something like this.
I have to and I have to process the emotions that naturally come from something like this on a weekly basis. And try to do it biblically.
-insert pause here- left my desk for staff chapel and then Arts Team meeting...
...where I have literally just left a conversation about marriage vs. divorce. One of the things that was said is that divorced people live 7 years FEWER than those who are not divorced because of the stress it imparts on their lives. Another is that counselors have said that they have NEVER heard any of their clients say that they regretted holding on and working through the tough times in their marriages but almost always hear from divorced people about how much they regret it. Now, I don't mean to harp on the divorce thing...and I'm not feeling sorry for myself, but, this is currently my life and I had some good passages from the Bible this morning to reference regarding how I deal with and handle these situations and feelings. Unfortunately, now, my focus has changed. I need to reflect further on this and revisit this issue in a future post.
It's so awesome how God works in my life. Where I thought I was in a good place...He shows me areas that I need to let Him in and let Him work on.
I know this sounds really scattered and I apologize.
All my love,
Kim
Not scattered, true life as it unfolds. Divorce is never the answer, but is sometimes the only solution for you to truly realize where God's place is in your life. Once he is first, you realize, although it was not what he wanted for you, it was always in his plan for your life, as he already has it all planned out to the last second. Always look up to him, as he is the only one who really matters and in the end, you never can truly lose him!!! SJ
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